The Mood

Damn it, I'm in the mood again. I've got these nightmares again for more than a week so I'm totally exhausted, on the edge and just about to start crying in any moment. Urgh, I hate this so much. It's like my brain decided not to let go of the past and everytime I'm about to forget, the dreams/nightmares come back to haunt me at night. I just wanna move on with my life because this isn't normal. I shouldn't have these nightmares after years. I seriously consider starting to read my psyhological book, maybe I could get something out from that. The several questions popping up in my head make me anxious even more. Why can't I forget? Is it possible I can't let go? Does these dreams mean something like in the past? Will I be able to move on ever? Do I even wanna move on? What if in the back of my mind I don't wanna let go? What if this is entirely my fault? And it goes on and on like this in every minute of the day. So, yeah, I'm in "The Mood" again.