2011. május 6., péntek

Isn't she all for women?!

Last night's thing was so fucking funny, I decided to write it like a story, it worth it, believe me.
I was cuddled up on Danny's lap as always. I sensed something was off with him but I didn't ask, I knew he would share if he wanted to. Plus, he acted weird for a few days - he hugged me too much, even if we always touched each other someway, he wasn't the hugging for nothing type - and when I asked if he wanted to talk about it, he answered not yet. So I decided to just leave it and given that I was quite bored I thought the best way to change that was to annoy him.
He's insanely ticklish, what I use against him often. In attempt to chase my boredom away, I tickled him. The only reaction I got was a sigh and my hands being pulled back. He was no game, what was again strange. The devil in me couldn't let it pass. I wanted to push, wanted to know what the hell was going on with him and I was restless. Since he still held my hands in a tight grip, I bit him.
"You just can't stand me being calm, can you?" He laughed at me finally, letting go of my wrists.
"You are no fun when you are calm," I laughed as well, snuggling on his lap.
"I've got something to tell you," he looked at me seriously.
There we go, I thought as we walked to a quiet little corner. He got together with Jess. It was okay, Jess was a cool girl, I was cool with her. No surprise, they flirted shamelessly. I was ready for this conversation, even waited to get over with this awkward part.
"Shoot," I smiled at him reassuringly, thinking he couldn't surprise me.
"I don't want you to think that I wanted to hide it from you, or that I don't trust you, so it's better if I tell you that Kimi and me, we are dating."
Did I say he couldn't surprise me? The hell, he couldn't. I gasped, my mouth hanging open, standing there like a moron. Kimi? Kimi?!
"Isn't she all for women?"
I wanted to hit him, badly, very, very badly, just punch him on the face. I was so screwed it was joyful to watch. But damn it, Kimi was... Kimi was lesbian, last time I heard. Not to mention her long time girlfriend - they were together for years - died only a few weeks ago. No wonder Danny was one of those guys no woman could say no to (looking like Taylor Kitch should be illegal, also tattoos on a body like that, not to mention a 125cc motorbike) but turning a lesbian... He must be a magician.
"Not that it matters," I laughed, correcting my comment in a blink of a time. "I'm so happy for you two, Kimi is such a sweetheart. And I will behave from now on."
And I even meant that. Kimi was a sweetheart, a little cutie, like a lost puppy, so vulnerable. No wonder why Danny liked her. Also, no wonder why I couldn't hate on her.
"I'd have felt bad if I haven't told you. I'm so happy, you are happy for us," he hugged me so tight I thought he would suffocate me.
I hugged back somehow awkwardly, closing my eyes, inhaling his unique cent. He always smelled like fuel and cinnamon, and man, pure man, gotta tell you, he was intoxicating.
"Of course I'm happy for you, silly. Kimi is such a sweet little thing, she will be good for your aching soul, just like you'll be good for hers."
Pff, it was hard not to say how ridicoulus the whole thing was and that even if I did like Kimi I thought it was interesting that she was already done with mourning. But it wasn't my place, didn't want to look jealous or anything.
"Yeah, we want to keep it low though, for obvious reasons. That's why I didn't tell you before," he explained and I almost said, yeah, probably everyone would wonder what the hell she did but again, I stayed silent.
"Understandable," I nodded, smiling. "Your secret is safe with me. I will keep my mouth shut."
There came the silence. I hated every moment of it, especially because Danny watched me like he could see right through me. It irritated me. I wanted to say something, anything but got no clue what would break the awkward moment.
"You know I'm still here for you, don't you?" He reached for my hand, looking at me with those puppy dog eyes.
This would be harder than I thought... We touched way too much until now, there was always a skin-skin connection when we were together. It just happened this way, that must end.
"Hey, no worries," I laughed at him. "We are friends and just because you are with Kimi, you still will be there for me, nothing changes."
Liar, I thought to myself. Everything changed. No more cuddling, no more teasing, nailing, biting, no more skin to skin fun.
"And if I get a man, I will still be there for you."
"Talking of which," he said casually and I raised an eyebrow, waiting for him to continoue. "Any plans for that?"
Jealous? Seriously? I almost said "Fuck you" but then thought better of it. I'd been called badass a lot not without a reason. I kept my walls high up and it wouldn't change. I couldn't lose my cool. "Yeah, sounds something like this: Get a man finally, for God' sake," I laughed, leaning against the wall.
"He will be one lucky bastard. You've got plenty to offer for someone who's got enough energy to fight for it and fight you," he laughed as well, watching me intensly.
"Don't know what you mean. I'm easy to be with, peaceful," I smirked.
"Indeed, peaceful," he chuckled, pulling me to his body.
"I knew you would agree," I grinned as we walked back to the others, wondering for how long we could keep up this facade.

PS.: I had a day to think it over and I came to the conclusion to just shrug it off. I like Danny too much to let this interlude ruining our friendship. I can see why he wants to be with Kimi. He needs somebody easy to be with, someone sweet, someone who isn't trouble with capital and that's Kimi, she's a doll. And about his jealousy... He's a man, an alphamale, I got used to this a long time ago. He will learn to deal with my significant other when the time comes.

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