Oh, Jesus fucking Christ! Why? And again I ask why??? Why do I have this god damn savior complex? Seriously, I swear I was wired in the wrong way. And why do I keep finding messed up men?
Let's get to the point. I've got a feeling Danny boy isn't so happy with little Kimi. I thought about it before because he didn't seem to be happy at all, rather frustrated but I shrugged it off, thinking it was only because of the "keep it low" part but I'm not so sure anymore.
I kept 3 steps distance all evening what wasn't pleasant at all but what's gotta be done is gotta be done. Danny tried to get closer but I preoccupied myself with the others. Of course, I talked to him a few words when he joined the conversation, it would have been weird if I hadn't, especially that he jumped on each and every oppurtunity to talk to me. When I realized Kitty was watching us suspiciously, I remembered I didn't even ask how he was, so I did. And what the answer was? He would let me know when he figured. Instead of grabbing him to a corner and pulling out of him what was wrong, I laughed, saying sounds like a plan. At least I'm improving. I'm trying hard not to get in a fight for a man's well being again. I need someone who fights for me and not the other way around.
But it's damn hard when he's sitting across me, all sad and everything. Then there's his big plan for the weekend, pff. Another sign that something is off. He's going to "intoxicate" himself (his words) with a friend. It would be normal for anybody else, but I happen to know he didn't get drunk since his engagement ended. I mentioned he said he wasn't about to drink at least until next year but he just shrugged, saying change of plans. Yeah, I could tell that.
Then he got in a fight. Some dude picked up on us and Danny lost it. The bouncers came before things could truly got out of hand. However, this was enough for me to be sure something is wrong. Danny stormed out, saying he got enough drama in the last few days, and didn't wanna get in more trouble.
Of course, I was the only one who knew what he meant, at least suspected. I wonder why in hell he got together with Kimi. Last time we talked about it, he didn't want anything serious. Then I figured, at least I think so. I'm not the only one with the savior complex. I've got a feeling Danny boy only got together with Kimi because he felt sorry for her. She looked so lost. She's the kind of girl who can't deal with the world alone, need someone to be there for her. I happen to know Danny's a good guy even if he hides it quite well. Underneath all the cockiness and sarcasm there's a caring, sensitive man who's got a sore point for girls like Kimi. I guess he only wanted to help her and he found himself in a relationship. As his friend I could say something, find a way to help him out from this mess he made. However, he didn't ask for my help and I learnt in the hard way not to get involved unless I'm asked. I might be worried about him but not so much to go down that road again. I will just sit there and wait how things turn out, help as much as I can without sinking too deep.
Now you listen to me, and listen to me good : you don't need to get involved onto this situation, and please, please, pretty please, don't go all 2I'm gonna save you" just because he acts all hurt. And even that in the wrong way. I mean, girl, did he really need to get into that fight? And what's with all that running after you suddenly? Sorry for the harshness, but I would HATE to see you hurt. Again. And weren't you in the relationship with the similar kind of guy? Very interesting, smart, deep down good, bad boy type? Girl, run free for a while, figure out what's best for you, for a change!!!!! No sin in that!!!!
VálaszTörlésp.s : just in case you have an argent need to punch me after reading this, I warn you : Hell Cat got bigger!!!! Ha!!!!!!
Oh, girl, I don't wanna punch you in the face, I wanna hug you because you are so sweet. No worries, I'm not going down the "save him" path. He's a big guy, deal with the mess he made. Hell, no, he shouldn't have gotten into that fight. The dude was harmless, would have left eventually. Actually, he was all over me since the moment we've met, so no news there. And hey, what can I do? Bad boys are my sore point, you should know that. They've got layers, and only a few can see what's underneath all the bad. Even my best friend is that type. About running free... Pff, I'm free for 5 years now (minus the Doc), honestly? I came to the point when being alone isn't fun anymore and I say it even if I love being alone. And I don't mean I want Danny, he's got a bike anyway, so he ruled out with that. I've already got enough to worry about without a man with bike. And don't threaten me with that kitten!!! I've got a watergun and I'm not afraid to use it.
VálaszTörlésWater bazooka wouldn't be enough, he's so fluffy. And if Danny boy starts to give you puppy dog eyes, pardon my rudeness, but that's a clear sign he's not as good as you might think. Run in opposite direction.
VálaszTörlésHaha, fluffy, that's cute. Danny really is a good guy, messed up and can be a jerk but still a good guy. He saved me from ruining my life forever so I believe he deserves a good point for that. But again, no worries, no fwb for me, or anything, really. I wouldn't start with somebody who's got a woman on his side.
VálaszTörlésI'm a great kitten hunter, he couldn't escape me. And about Danny. He's messed up but he saved me from ruining my life for good, so he deserves a point for that.
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