The last few weeks were crazy, like totally and absoulutely insane. First of all, I got a job!!!!! It's only for a few months, but it pays and it's a job so I'm quite happy about it. It's in a bank. I swear, people are so f*ing dumb they would even sign to sell out their insides. But I like it. The boss is awesome, I don't even see her around. And people with their idiotism can be entertaining, they break the monotonity. Also, no work at the weekend.
About Danny... We fell apart again. It was nasty, really, really big. But we talked it over (again). I decided to be smart and bend just a little because it would have been a dead end if neither of us had loosened a bit. I pulled away, what made him withdraw, what made me pull even further so it was nonsense. I let down my guards for him in general, this can only work this way and it makes him to open up as well. They broke with Jess. I felt so damn guilty when he told me, for one, I was a bitch with him and for two, there was a tiny moment, a blink of a time when I was happy about it. Of course, my next thought was that he was hurt and what a terrible person I was to feel good but I couldn't help it. Oh, well, I'm a human being and I'm selfish sometimes, can't help it. But it's fine, I'm working my way through my messed up mind. It's time for that.
